Where have you been?

Where have you been?

Even though my situation is a little more serious than this video.  I love to laugh.  And making this video made me laugh.  Hope it does the same for you!

In honor of March Madness, and you know me… I describe everything I experience through a story.  So, imagine with me for a moment.  You are playing basketball.   You are not a starter in the game.  Nor are you a polished knowledgeable player.  Yet, you are good enough to make the team. The score at the moment in the game is 1,143,000,000 to six.” The odds are heavily stacked against your team.  But your coach stands up, yells over the crowd toward the end of the bench, his index finger pointing at you, and you jump to hear your coaches’ instructions.  He proceeds to tell you, that you are going to get in that game,  “Not only are you going to play, but you are going to win it.”

With anxiety in your heart, you join in the game.  The first few buckets you make builds your confidence, your shoulders straighten, the three-point line seems only a foot away the shots are just gliding in.  The opposing team’s coach sees this threat.  Double team, triple team, foul that player whatever it takes, just stop him/her from succeeding.

A foul is called against the opposing team, but the damage is done.  Your ankle has twisted you heard the dreaded pop.  You look to your coach assuming your job has been done.  But he smiles encouragingly whispers, “We still need you in the game.  Limp along, do what you can, my coaching will help make up the rest.”  With nothing to go on but faith, you get up start limping along.  Amazingly, though slower paced, you still manage to make more buckets.  A flagrant foul is called on the opposing team as your head hits the floor.   Dizzy, confused, ears ringing, you pick up what feels like a 50-pound bowling ball that they tell you is your head to carry,  still limping you can also hear your coach ­­­­tell you,  “I still need you on the court……”

Since I was a little girl, about 8, my biggest hero (though 11 years past before I knew what church he belonged to) was Joseph Smith.   This is next week’s story That large number I stated above 1,143,000,000  was the approximate population of the earth in the year 1830 when the restored Church of Jesus Christ was officially organized with six members.  The other number I mentioned. Was the number of leaders that organized the church.  Joseph an unlearned, unpolished man and the other five who organized the church where ordinary people, their small following were humble seekers of Christ. People that despite the odds against them, they accomplished extraordinary things.   Joseph was in a prison cell where the opposing team put him.  When the Lord declared to him, “The ends of the earth shall know thy name.”   I cannot even imagine how unlikely that could have seemed to him at that moment.

I am no Joseph Smith, nor am I a basketball player.  But I am a child of God, who loves all his children equally.  And he will help me accomplish the portion of his plan that he has entrusted to me.  Though For the past 3 months I have hardly, and at times not been able to walk at all.  It also feels like I am carrying around a 50 lb weight on my shoulders. The Doctors have discovered a malformation in my head called Chiari Malformation, that seems to be causing the medical problems I am having.  However, the fix to that problem is brain surgery.  In an effort to avoid that we, a team of doctor’s and my family, have tried other ways to control the symptoms though we have learned a lot in our efforts It looks like surgery will be the best option.

The last couple of weeks have been extremely hard to try and think through the pain or look at a lite up computer screen.  But I cannot express how blessed I feel that I have this blog and people who read it.  When I feel like I have touched even one life through my experiences it gives meaning and purpose in my own life.  As the above video states…. Odds are often stacked against us and we want to get back in bed!  But, I feel lucky to have you and I truly feel after this my health will be better than it has been in almost 20 years!!!


Another thought I’d like to share one that has inspired me over the last few months!


I have a very close friend who has traveled a very bumpy road.  The hardest bump she blog kendalhit was when she was on her LDS mission.  These are her words to me today on how dire the situation was for her. “A handful of missionaries (she was on a mission in Australia and was hit by a car) showed up at the hospital and the paramedics told them, “We’re sorry for your loss.  Expecting that I wouldn’t pull through, because my brain had been so damaged.  When they transferred me to Hawaii the neurologist immediately told my parents that I would never recover.  I would be the girl in a bed for life and to just put me in a care facility.  They never dreamed she could walk again.  Through the last three months, she has been a guiding light to me.  Here’s part of her story.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86z7H06Q2F0&feature=share You can also follow her Facebook page if you want to be inspired more by her.   I love you all and thank you for your support and the confidence you have in me when you ask me your questions.  Please don’t stop asking.  Just know it could be a while to recovery for me. But I will answer I promise! Love Always strength-n-adversity. Shawna

quote goliathI want to leave you with this thought by president Nelson,  “You who may be momentarily disheartened, remember, life is not meant to be easy. Trials must be borne, and grief endured along the way. As you remember that “with God, nothing shall be impossible” (Luke 1:37), know that He is your Father. You are a son or daughter created in His image, entitled through your worthiness to receive revelation to help with your righteous endeavors. You may take upon you the holy name of the Lord. You can qualify to speak in the sacred name of God (see D&C 1:20). It matters not that giants of tribulation torment you. Your prayerful access to help is just as real as when David battled his Goliath (see 1 Sam. 17).


The thought I hope to leave you with is:  Things in our lives that seem the hardest may very well be the things we personally need to become whom we are truly capable of being.  I know the Lord does not delight in our suffering!  But he delights in us and our growth.  With him we can beat the odds stacked against us, face our Goliath’s and become children of our royal birthright!


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